Same as the songs - my personal picks chosen for random personal reasons.
1.) 'Leon' The Professional
1994
Personally Notable Line: "Bingo!" (Oldman, when the drugs are found).
Simply my favorite movie. Jean Reno/Natalie Portman as the 'good guys' with Gary Oldman and crew as the bad guys. I really won't do it much justice by talking about it here. It turned me on to Luc Besson, for which I'll always be thankful. If you're planning to see it, make sure you get the director's cut.
2.) True Romance
1993
PNL: "You're so cool." - I say this to my son all the time.
Another stunner and a very, very close second. The cast: Christian Slater, Dennis Hopper, Chris Walken, James Gandolfini, Michael Rapaport, Brad Pitt, Bronson Pinchot, Patti Arquette, Val Kilmer, Sam Jackson and more. One of the finest scenes in any movie affectionately dubbed 'The Sicilian Scene' featuring Walken and Hopper is a must see. The eggplant and cantaloupe lines were improvised. A brilliantly cast and directed love story revolving around violence and drug culture makes for a serious flick.
3.) Fight Club
1999
PNL: "The first rule of Fight Club is.." - I use this from time to time, everyone seems to get the meaning.
I don't like Palahniuk's books or writing style, but I'm thankful he wrote Fight Club and that it made it into Fincher's hands. I'm sure more of his works will be on this list as I think through the rest of my personal picks. Pitt cemented his place in acting history with his performance, regardless of what the critics and their 'opinions' were. MeatLoaf with 'bitch tits'? Worth the price of admission alone.
4.) Star Wars IV - A new hope.
1977
PNL: 'Whatever the hell sound it is that sand people make'.
I was four years old when I first saw this movie. I sat in the car for 3 hours crying because my parents wouldn't take me and they finally gave in. The sand people scared the living shit out of me and I remember thinking 'If I had me one of them light sabres I could do some real damage'. I also remember thinking Jawas were cool and I often use Jawa as my name when signing up for 'free trial software' these days. Lots of good memories from that night - my aunt/uncle and cousins happened to be at the same theater and it turned into a great night overall. Lucas started working on this movie, and the subsequent movies during the year I was born. I'm seeing a theme here..
5.) Trainspotting
1996
PNL: "Choose life"
Much like #8, this movie met me at a time in my life when I was ready for it. It introduced me to a whole new set of talented actors I've followed ever since (tsk tsk for that 28 weeks later crap Richard), not to mention re-introduced me to Iggy Pop and Lou Reed. Hopefully whichever studio picks up the sequel (Porno) can wrangle the original cast.
6.) Alien
1979
PNL (of course): "It's game over man!"
The best sci-fi/horror movie ever made in my opinion. I'm guessing that I've seen this movie 20+ times.
7.) Se7en
1995
PNL: "The world is a fine place and worth fighting for. I agree with the second part"
Yep, another Fincher epic. Totally different genre of flick than Fight Club, but equally good and definitely ground breaking. His films really seem to define entire genres. Of course, after a statement like that, what else is there to say? Other than his casts always seem to be chock full of talent. I'll have to look into who casts for him.
8.) The Basketball Diaries
1995
PNL: None come to mind. I read somewhere that DiCaprio snorted Ovaltine on camera to simulate cocaine though, which is pretty cool.
This movie just hit me at a time in my life when I could relate and really enjoy seeing someones life unravel, as odd as that sounds. Good music, great cast and being based on actual events in Jim Carroll's life I was blown away by it all.
9.) Naked
1993
PNL: '666'
It's a thinker. Dark, brooding, haphazard and very entertaining. Not for mass consumption or lowest common denominator types. No plot to speak of and it centers around the main character who's a serious asshole (and fatalist) to everyone he meets. I've seen every movie David Thewlis has acted in since seeing Naked hoping to find another performance akin to Naked, but it remains his best to date.
10.) Donnie Darko
2001
PNL: "Why are you wearing that stupid man suit?"
I have yet to see Southland Tales, and I'm in no big rush based on the overwhelming negative reaction from the few critics I can actually stomach. Kelly's 'Darko' however is another one of those intensely interesting movies and it basically introduces Jake Gyllenhaal to the planet. I thoroughly enjoyed it and have it in an annual rotation with a handful of others in this list.
Other great flicks
American Psycho - 2000 starring my favorite actor, Christian Bale.
Empire of the Sun - 1987 Bale's first movie. It blew me away at 14 or 15 when I first saw it.
Alpha Dog - 2007 Ben Foster was unbelievably good in this movie. Timberlake can actually act.
Monday, December 31, 2007
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Personal 'Top 10' Songs - December 2007
These aren't what I would consider the top 10 of all time or anything - that would be an entirely different list. There are just mainstream type songs I enjoy for various reasons at this moment in time. I won't throw any obscure titles in here. I'll save those strictly for myself for the moment. My Zen Vision play lists are only meant to melt my head, for now.
1.) Sympathy for the Devil
Rolling Stones
Amazing introduction. I 'discovered' the stones via this song (on a mix tape I borrowed from a friend when I just started getting into music) about 20 years ago and I've loved it ever since. The lyrics strike me as a good mix of provocative and decadent, which is rare and cool as hell. Any song sung from the first person as Lucifer is good stuff. "So if you meet me have some courtesy, have some sympathy and some taste. Use all your well-learned politesse or Ill lay your soul to waste" - doesn't get much better.
2.) Hey man, nice shot
Filter
Another great introduction. This song was all over the radio the summer I relocated to a new city and spent a lot of that time driving around meeting new people and generally hanging out. You can youtube the clip showing the public suicide the song is referring to I'm sure.
3.) Fortunate Son
CCR
I'm not a big CCR fan, but this song is a must hear. I'm aware of the 60's generation being tied to it anthemically but all that aside it's just a great American rock tune.
4.) Karma Police
Radiohead
A little haunting, a little catchy, a little mindful. A great song.
5.) Dancing Nancies
Dave Matthews (band)
I really like the way this strong is constructed. Almost as much as the second song on this list. It's a bit of a thinker, but it doesn't feel contrived or forced which are always big turn offs for me.
6.) Nautical Disaster
The Tragically Hip
Creepy and important. For some reason those two ideas form what this song means to me. Easily my favorite 'Hip song and if you haven't heard it - you're missing something. I actually wrote a short story in high school inspired by the line 'As parasites might drink your blood' about a judgemental drinking fountain that was published in a teaching magazine. How's that for some odd personal history?
7.) Live and Let Die
Paul McCartney (not The Beatles)
This song is just cool. It was recorded the year I was born (never a bad thing unless it's that cursed Tie a yellow ribbon song) and it was the title track to a Bond flick soundtrack. No brainer here. It seems like it was a little before its time, which is also rarely a bad thing.
8.) I'm shipping up to Boston
Dropkick Murphys
If you haven't heard it, it won't matter what I write about it. If you're a hockey fan you've definitely heard it. Celtic Punk, who'd have thought.
9.) Muzik
Knoc-Turn'al feat. Samuel Christian
I hate rap (or hip hop or whatever label you slap on that crap), I really do. That talentless re-mixing, over sampling/taking credit for digitally hacking and messing with previous legitimate artist's work genre of music irks me at best generally. Every now and again though, I run across a song (yes, a song - I don't consider most rap 'songs' to be actual songs) that fuses actual music with a good beat and it's catchy enough to make it into a play list. Usually for a short time, but here it is.
10.) To be named later. This should be a decent song and it's been a long enough day that only trivially interesting songs (like #9) are rattling around in my head now.
1.) Sympathy for the Devil
Rolling Stones
Amazing introduction. I 'discovered' the stones via this song (on a mix tape I borrowed from a friend when I just started getting into music) about 20 years ago and I've loved it ever since. The lyrics strike me as a good mix of provocative and decadent, which is rare and cool as hell. Any song sung from the first person as Lucifer is good stuff. "So if you meet me have some courtesy, have some sympathy and some taste. Use all your well-learned politesse or Ill lay your soul to waste" - doesn't get much better.
2.) Hey man, nice shot
Filter
Another great introduction. This song was all over the radio the summer I relocated to a new city and spent a lot of that time driving around meeting new people and generally hanging out. You can youtube the clip showing the public suicide the song is referring to I'm sure.
3.) Fortunate Son
CCR
I'm not a big CCR fan, but this song is a must hear. I'm aware of the 60's generation being tied to it anthemically but all that aside it's just a great American rock tune.
4.) Karma Police
Radiohead
A little haunting, a little catchy, a little mindful. A great song.
5.) Dancing Nancies
Dave Matthews (band)
I really like the way this strong is constructed. Almost as much as the second song on this list. It's a bit of a thinker, but it doesn't feel contrived or forced which are always big turn offs for me.
6.) Nautical Disaster
The Tragically Hip
Creepy and important. For some reason those two ideas form what this song means to me. Easily my favorite 'Hip song and if you haven't heard it - you're missing something. I actually wrote a short story in high school inspired by the line 'As parasites might drink your blood' about a judgemental drinking fountain that was published in a teaching magazine. How's that for some odd personal history?
7.) Live and Let Die
Paul McCartney (not The Beatles)
This song is just cool. It was recorded the year I was born (never a bad thing unless it's that cursed Tie a yellow ribbon song) and it was the title track to a Bond flick soundtrack. No brainer here. It seems like it was a little before its time, which is also rarely a bad thing.
8.) I'm shipping up to Boston
Dropkick Murphys
If you haven't heard it, it won't matter what I write about it. If you're a hockey fan you've definitely heard it. Celtic Punk, who'd have thought.
9.) Muzik
Knoc-Turn'al feat. Samuel Christian
I hate rap (or hip hop or whatever label you slap on that crap), I really do. That talentless re-mixing, over sampling/taking credit for digitally hacking and messing with previous legitimate artist's work genre of music irks me at best generally. Every now and again though, I run across a song (yes, a song - I don't consider most rap 'songs' to be actual songs) that fuses actual music with a good beat and it's catchy enough to make it into a play list. Usually for a short time, but here it is.
10.) To be named later. This should be a decent song and it's been a long enough day that only trivially interesting songs (like #9) are rattling around in my head now.
Friday, December 28, 2007
Introspection Part 1
Time to dig into why I think the way I do. Most of the reason can be attributed to my formative years with a little self initiated study as I'm sure is true of most. None, or very few of my opinions are completely static. I'm not naive or arrogant enough to think I know all angles of many issues well enough to form a completely resolute opinion on it.
So let's start with the easiest one that just popped into my head.
Religion.
The facts:
Religion is the single largest cause of human death in the course of human history. Attempts to force one faith's 'religion' on others have spawned some of the most heinous human on human acts imaginable. To what end? Land grabs, political power, keeping the masses in line and/or ignorant, and the other usual human perversions caused by delusions of piety or self righteousness. It has also been the single largest source of the retardation of human evolution. The world isn't flat. The earth is not the center of the Universe and women are as equal to men as they choose to be. The people who wrote the various bibles or scriptures way back when (which are indeed good stories) just didn't know any better at the time. The people enforcing whatever beliefs that had been given to them by these books did so blindly, which is unforgivable.
The formative experience:
To this day I'll never forget the single defining act that sealed my opinion on organized religion forever. A good friend of mine growing up is the son of a baptist minister. Now, I'm not picking on baptists, this just happens to be about them as I had no exposure to other religions at the time. Further investigation on my part found similarities in other faiths and denominations, so in essence I'm speaking about all organized religion anyway. So, I'm over at his house one day after school. I was 13 or 14 at the time. Everyone at this house was quite sullen and quiet which was unusual. His father was on the phone speaking in hushed tones and apparently had been doing so all day. After some more hushed conversations and poorly veiled fretting, there was an announcement. The church was to be closed and my friend and his family were to be moved to another city to lead another one. Now that's pretty big news to a kid. That's a life impact, not just a casual event.
Me being the outsider asked the typical questions: Why was it being closed? Did they have to move? Who made that decision? The answers. Very simply put: It wasn't making enough money. Yes, they had to move. God made the decision.
I actually laughed at first, thinking it was a joke. God made the decision to shut down a church with hundreds of members because it wasn't bringing in enough money and there was nothing anyone could do about it? We're talking about a group of people that met in a large conference room at a local recreation center a couple times a week. The revenue from the church was paying my friend's dad's salary, the cost of the room, and the costs of their literature with the surplus being sent back to wherever it was God had decided apparently. I moved from laughter to outrage. The only other friend I had seen move away did so because his Dad was transferred by his company, and he had a choice and chose to move. 1 +1 being 2 turned religion into business, with the 'businessmen' hiding their money grubbing behind 'God's will'. What a racket.
The study:
I decided then to keep my eye out for other similar 'activities' while continuing my education in the public school system and being exposed to the crusades, the inquisition, witch burnings, and the myriad of other glorified power grabs in God's name by corrupt humans. I learned about revisionist history, entire movements of specific censorship spanning decades, persecution of the scientific, and the rest of man's attempts to obliterate anything other than exactly what the particular man in power at the time believed to be what everyone else should believe.
Recent affirmation:
Most recently I was listening to a friend lamenting his wife's decision to begin working for the church they belong to. Again, slipping into my outsider frame of mind I asked: Why? The answer, again very simply put: Because worship is now secondary. She works each service, rather than attends them. She attempted to work some, and attend others only to be expected to work any she attended regardless of her intent. A conversation with whoever the higher ups are in the church resulted in a none too subtle threat to blackball his family if he questioned God's will in this matter. I'm nothing if not a creature of habit - so again, I was outraged. I believe my exact words were 'Are you fucking kidding me?' The response - What else can I do?
Current conclusion:
Why join any organized religion? Personal beliefs are just that, personal. Is it the desire for validation and the need to be part of a flock that drives it? Join a social club, an ethnic club, a book club, a volunteer organization. How is any one person's relationship with their God anyone else's business? I personally view organized religion as unnecessary and leading to a constant source of conflict. Interpretation is at the very core of the human condition and to surrender it to anyone else is a crime, unless you're a sheep. Once you've decided on a path to follow, whether it be snake charming or Catholicism I say to you: Congratulations! Keep it to yourself.
This type of thinking or sheep mentality isn't specific to religion. How many glasses of water should you drink a day for optimal health? 8 right? Wrong. There is no scientific support that 1 glass or 8 glasses make a difference. You get most of the fluid your body needs through the food you eat. Independent thought and research should be encouraged at all times. How will we ever grow without it? How many 'studies' have been proven wrong and how were they proven wrong? Other independent studies. How much damage was caused while the original study was accepted as gospel? Cigarettes are good for you right? Continually study, accept very little as truth and take responsibility for your own actions and thought.
So let's start with the easiest one that just popped into my head.
Religion.
The facts:
Religion is the single largest cause of human death in the course of human history. Attempts to force one faith's 'religion' on others have spawned some of the most heinous human on human acts imaginable. To what end? Land grabs, political power, keeping the masses in line and/or ignorant, and the other usual human perversions caused by delusions of piety or self righteousness. It has also been the single largest source of the retardation of human evolution. The world isn't flat. The earth is not the center of the Universe and women are as equal to men as they choose to be. The people who wrote the various bibles or scriptures way back when (which are indeed good stories) just didn't know any better at the time. The people enforcing whatever beliefs that had been given to them by these books did so blindly, which is unforgivable.
The formative experience:
To this day I'll never forget the single defining act that sealed my opinion on organized religion forever. A good friend of mine growing up is the son of a baptist minister. Now, I'm not picking on baptists, this just happens to be about them as I had no exposure to other religions at the time. Further investigation on my part found similarities in other faiths and denominations, so in essence I'm speaking about all organized religion anyway. So, I'm over at his house one day after school. I was 13 or 14 at the time. Everyone at this house was quite sullen and quiet which was unusual. His father was on the phone speaking in hushed tones and apparently had been doing so all day. After some more hushed conversations and poorly veiled fretting, there was an announcement. The church was to be closed and my friend and his family were to be moved to another city to lead another one. Now that's pretty big news to a kid. That's a life impact, not just a casual event.
Me being the outsider asked the typical questions: Why was it being closed? Did they have to move? Who made that decision? The answers. Very simply put: It wasn't making enough money. Yes, they had to move. God made the decision.
I actually laughed at first, thinking it was a joke. God made the decision to shut down a church with hundreds of members because it wasn't bringing in enough money and there was nothing anyone could do about it? We're talking about a group of people that met in a large conference room at a local recreation center a couple times a week. The revenue from the church was paying my friend's dad's salary, the cost of the room, and the costs of their literature with the surplus being sent back to wherever it was God had decided apparently. I moved from laughter to outrage. The only other friend I had seen move away did so because his Dad was transferred by his company, and he had a choice and chose to move. 1 +1 being 2 turned religion into business, with the 'businessmen' hiding their money grubbing behind 'God's will'. What a racket.
The study:
I decided then to keep my eye out for other similar 'activities' while continuing my education in the public school system and being exposed to the crusades, the inquisition, witch burnings, and the myriad of other glorified power grabs in God's name by corrupt humans. I learned about revisionist history, entire movements of specific censorship spanning decades, persecution of the scientific, and the rest of man's attempts to obliterate anything other than exactly what the particular man in power at the time believed to be what everyone else should believe.
Recent affirmation:
Most recently I was listening to a friend lamenting his wife's decision to begin working for the church they belong to. Again, slipping into my outsider frame of mind I asked: Why? The answer, again very simply put: Because worship is now secondary. She works each service, rather than attends them. She attempted to work some, and attend others only to be expected to work any she attended regardless of her intent. A conversation with whoever the higher ups are in the church resulted in a none too subtle threat to blackball his family if he questioned God's will in this matter. I'm nothing if not a creature of habit - so again, I was outraged. I believe my exact words were 'Are you fucking kidding me?' The response - What else can I do?
Current conclusion:
Why join any organized religion? Personal beliefs are just that, personal. Is it the desire for validation and the need to be part of a flock that drives it? Join a social club, an ethnic club, a book club, a volunteer organization. How is any one person's relationship with their God anyone else's business? I personally view organized religion as unnecessary and leading to a constant source of conflict. Interpretation is at the very core of the human condition and to surrender it to anyone else is a crime, unless you're a sheep. Once you've decided on a path to follow, whether it be snake charming or Catholicism I say to you: Congratulations! Keep it to yourself.
This type of thinking or sheep mentality isn't specific to religion. How many glasses of water should you drink a day for optimal health? 8 right? Wrong. There is no scientific support that 1 glass or 8 glasses make a difference. You get most of the fluid your body needs through the food you eat. Independent thought and research should be encouraged at all times. How will we ever grow without it? How many 'studies' have been proven wrong and how were they proven wrong? Other independent studies. How much damage was caused while the original study was accepted as gospel? Cigarettes are good for you right? Continually study, accept very little as truth and take responsibility for your own actions and thought.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Colloquialism - An updated definition.
The definition of this word is something along the lines of turning 'proper' language into something a little more informal, or at least imitating what would be considered informal. I've witnessed the birth of a colloquialism over the past few years and it pained me so deeply that I feel the need to rant about it.
The word: Chipotle.
Actual pronunciation: Chi-pote-lay
Murdered pronunciation: Chi-pole-tee
There's nothing informal about it. It's a mispronunciation by people either too lazy/stupid to take the time/have the capacity to sound out the word. There's a clear dividing line here I've noticed. On one side of the line are those that managed to read and say the word correctly, on the other side are the mouth breathers. I'm sure entire flawed word based dialects have been created this way.
It's time to administer a standardized test to the masses. Anyone joyfully spouting the wrong version of this word should be branded a barely functional incompetent and cast into careers that have absolutely no impact on life, or the living. The test would have other similar questions, progressively scaling the respondants from 'normally functioning' to 'not allowed to procreate'. Those in the latter category would be given $50 in gift certificates for 'Chi-pole-tee' restaurants (thank you McDonald's for your next best gift to the lowest common denominator), and there would be a secret mandate requiring the introduction of chemical castration additives to all menu items.
In my world
Colloquialism: The stupid and or lazy version of any word. The repeated use of which (everyone's allowed one mistake) should result in an irreversible end to bloodline of the utterer.
The word: Chipotle.
Actual pronunciation: Chi-pote-lay
Murdered pronunciation: Chi-pole-tee
There's nothing informal about it. It's a mispronunciation by people either too lazy/stupid to take the time/have the capacity to sound out the word. There's a clear dividing line here I've noticed. On one side of the line are those that managed to read and say the word correctly, on the other side are the mouth breathers. I'm sure entire flawed word based dialects have been created this way.
It's time to administer a standardized test to the masses. Anyone joyfully spouting the wrong version of this word should be branded a barely functional incompetent and cast into careers that have absolutely no impact on life, or the living. The test would have other similar questions, progressively scaling the respondants from 'normally functioning' to 'not allowed to procreate'. Those in the latter category would be given $50 in gift certificates for 'Chi-pole-tee' restaurants (thank you McDonald's for your next best gift to the lowest common denominator), and there would be a secret mandate requiring the introduction of chemical castration additives to all menu items.
In my world
Colloquialism: The stupid and or lazy version of any word. The repeated use of which (everyone's allowed one mistake) should result in an irreversible end to bloodline of the utterer.
Friday, December 21, 2007
Words: The good, the bad and the annoying.
I plan on adding to this list as I travel back in my head through all of my readings, listenings and viewings and dredge up the ugly, the annoying, the oft misused and the completely redundant. On the negative side, most of this is based on mental damage caused by being exposed to these words being used out of any sensical context, too many times, or just outright incorrectly and are purely opinion based. I don't hold the dictionary, the thesaurus or even the encyclopedia in any form of regard other than that I know they exist and serve a purpose to some, and little to others so I tend to not conform to their constructs. On the positive side, some words just make me smile.
Words I hate and refuse to use:
dichotomy - this was so incredibly over used by every highschool teacher wannabe literary wizard I had it makes me twitch and/or dry heave when I hear it.
irregardless - it's not a damn word. regardless + irrespective does not equal irregardless(see last sentence under unmerciful).
unmerciful - completely redundant and half the word that merciless is. Someone needs to start a campaign to have this word stricken from the collective conscience.
Words I enjoy and use too much:
aggregate - I dig this word mostly because it can be used in at least a dozen different ways. Generally I use it in its 'assemblage of particulars'/'a total or gross amount' form but I love its flexibility and all of its forms.
Words I hate and refuse to use:
dichotomy - this was so incredibly over used by every highschool teacher wannabe literary wizard I had it makes me twitch and/or dry heave when I hear it.
irregardless - it's not a damn word. regardless + irrespective does not equal irregardless(see last sentence under unmerciful).
unmerciful - completely redundant and half the word that merciless is. Someone needs to start a campaign to have this word stricken from the collective conscience.
Words I enjoy and use too much:
aggregate - I dig this word mostly because it can be used in at least a dozen different ways. Generally I use it in its 'assemblage of particulars'/'a total or gross amount' form but I love its flexibility and all of its forms.
Current Effort - My human recondition
Thesis statement? Disclaimer? As close as I care to come to either one I guess.
It's with an utter lack of regard for refinement (for now) that I begin what I hope to be as much a documentary of my journey into self exposure and investigation as it is a cry for help. Sure I mean that figuratively and with equal parts cheek and gravity, but ultimately I'm hoping it all lands somewhere in between. I do plan on being completely candid and uncensored, so you've been warned.
Having been fascinated by the human condition since I was old enough to understand the concept of existentialism and introspection, I've shamefully never dedicated anything more than casual conversation or fleeting thought to it. Worse than that, the thought slices I have thrown at it have often been those typically reserved for sifting through the days events or planning those of the next one. Something this important shouldn't be held to competition with the mundane and it is my intent to write (right) that. Yes, now and again I'll throw in a stupid little pun to keep myself off balance and scare away the over initiated.
So this will be an attempt to be fair to my single longest lasting interest by giving it its own space in my life's universe. The fact that it happens to be publicly available is the first of many testaments to my hopefully comparatively weird nature, although with all likelihood it will be completely ignored which is a little comforting and perverse at the same time.
First of all - I'll have to excuse myself and my use of at least 300% more words than are necessary to get whatever it is I'm trying to say out. It's part of my thought process. I prefer to slip into the streaming consciousness state and tag whatever it is that comes along that I find of interest on this topic and add flesh to it as my fingers stumble over my keyboard. Yes it's inefficient and will invariably lead anyone reading this to the only logical first impression of me being someone who prefers quantity to quality but as time goes on I'll hopefully alter that perception. That, and I rarely doublecheck or re-read what I've written so I apologize in advance for re-stating points over and over, typing gibberish, not correcting typos or misspellings or ignoring most of the other general adminstrative/editorial tasks.
I think that sets the stage well enough for the moment.
I do finally, reserve the right to completely disregard anything I write about my potential future behavior and change directions without warning, because if I didn't - how would I learn anything about myself or my human condition?
It's with an utter lack of regard for refinement (for now) that I begin what I hope to be as much a documentary of my journey into self exposure and investigation as it is a cry for help. Sure I mean that figuratively and with equal parts cheek and gravity, but ultimately I'm hoping it all lands somewhere in between. I do plan on being completely candid and uncensored, so you've been warned.
Having been fascinated by the human condition since I was old enough to understand the concept of existentialism and introspection, I've shamefully never dedicated anything more than casual conversation or fleeting thought to it. Worse than that, the thought slices I have thrown at it have often been those typically reserved for sifting through the days events or planning those of the next one. Something this important shouldn't be held to competition with the mundane and it is my intent to write (right) that. Yes, now and again I'll throw in a stupid little pun to keep myself off balance and scare away the over initiated.
So this will be an attempt to be fair to my single longest lasting interest by giving it its own space in my life's universe. The fact that it happens to be publicly available is the first of many testaments to my hopefully comparatively weird nature, although with all likelihood it will be completely ignored which is a little comforting and perverse at the same time.
First of all - I'll have to excuse myself and my use of at least 300% more words than are necessary to get whatever it is I'm trying to say out. It's part of my thought process. I prefer to slip into the streaming consciousness state and tag whatever it is that comes along that I find of interest on this topic and add flesh to it as my fingers stumble over my keyboard. Yes it's inefficient and will invariably lead anyone reading this to the only logical first impression of me being someone who prefers quantity to quality but as time goes on I'll hopefully alter that perception. That, and I rarely doublecheck or re-read what I've written so I apologize in advance for re-stating points over and over, typing gibberish, not correcting typos or misspellings or ignoring most of the other general adminstrative/editorial tasks.
I think that sets the stage well enough for the moment.
I do finally, reserve the right to completely disregard anything I write about my potential future behavior and change directions without warning, because if I didn't - how would I learn anything about myself or my human condition?
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